Is there more to life..then I think?

Sometimes I wonder could dreams come true??
but what if they were mostly nightmares, would they come true...
I don't know what to do theres so much we want from life and so much we can't have...
Why Must we be forced to think what others think, what I want and what I need is completely different right?
What if what you want is what you need to survive? ugh life is just tragic sometimes but what is worse when people tell you to hold on?? when you know that you won't...
ugh I wish things were just easier.. not much positive I know? but still I can never get what im looking for ugh I better go study, if I want to go to college and have a career{which I doubt it} I use to be the same girl wishing for someone to lurve, yearn for a hand that picks me up and doesn't take his hand back? but from like those movies Popstar and No.1 Bigggest fan or something where celebrities young popstar just end up in your house unexpected if kinda hmm as you say fictional? any chance Adam Levine can come over? nahhh his 30 and wayyy older then me...yeh I don't know what im on about maybe possibly because my sister is watching Popstar{the movie} in my room and I saw glimpses of it...

I have tried many things in my life like playing guitar,writing stories, or setting a group youtube account and basically watching all of these things crash and burned.....
ugh im fed up of being a miserable loser im going to go study and yeah basically not do anything else....
pleh thanks everybody you shouldn't have read this at all just meaningless semantics typed up, a little negativity here and there but jah venting is great for the soul....
so bye and thanks!!!
~Hopeless Fiya............